Bad Romance

I'm okay with sleeping with a broken heart. I put my heart on the line and I was honest about what I wanted. He's like the wind, but I go where ever it blows. Its sacrilegious to declare that I desire commitment.

Yet I'm realistic to understand that he has a job to do. We weren't fated to be in 2010 but perhaps we'll m...eet in the future. I like him a lot and have shed a lot of tears. Who knows where we'll end or begin.

Somewhat sappy and unrealistic to the actual happenings. But he deploys tonight too Afghanistan for 12-15 months.

Its been one heck of turbulent ride.


Tallyho! All Aboard to Germany! ..again

May 25- Moved to Germany
June 7- Got job at the gas station
June 8- Started said job. Now I'm sponsored by the military to be in Germany
June 15- Got my German drivers licence
June 19- Will receive my car to drive in Germany

ANSWERS to the SILENT questions:

-I have a place to stay. My friend C, her husband deployed so she opened her home to me.

---My homeboy is deploying and he's letting me borrow his card; he's gonna continue paying for insurance, gonna give me money for new breaks, and putting me on registration. Basically he's gonna get a power of attonery. ...

He didn't wanna put his car in storage and he knew I was gonna need a car. So it works out.

---I'd rather work a mininum wage job in Germany, with the opporunity to visit Greece or Spain for a 4 day weekend than being in Ohio with my application/resume on hold.

---I put in 100$ for groceries, dont have to pay for anything but gas for my car, my extra things, but I'm not going to be a taker. I help out around the house and watch her kids to give her a break.

---And as for my next step. Taking everything day by day. Not stressing and enjoying life. I've been extremely blessed.


My Personal Birthday Gift: 6/10/87

It wont make sense to you.

It only matters to me.

I believe in love and the sanctity of marriage.

With this I can only treasure, appreciate, honor, and love my next step.

My Birthday Gift is to Marry myself.

I dont trust anyone. I barely trust myself.

In that case I qualify.

Only I understand the complexity within and I still aim to win.

No one measures up and Ive lost My Ruler.

So with this Ring I Thee Wed Me.