Chopped & Screwed

MY hair is damaged so much from flat ironing it.. it is now permanently straight.. my choices are now
-keep the burnt hair and let it grow out..
-cut the hair off and start anew

The only issue is my concurrent case of alopecia (due to stress) and I just cant allow that to be seen ... so I'm prolly gonna keep my hair a...nd get some micros or kinky twists

I need to start taking better care of my hair & body: i recently bought some coconut milk, coconut oil, EVOO, peppermint oil, and some ACV (I bought the wrong kind of of ACV, I need to get the unfilitered sort).

My alopecia patch is slowly growing in but its still worrying me. Im trying not to let anything stress me .. BUT its oh so hard. grrr

I'ma wear my hair in two-strand twists as a constant protective style until I get micros or my A.patch grows in.
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My hair damaged began when I first got my hair hot combed back in June or July 2009.




I'm just now noticing that I had lost my original curl pattern back in 2009.

My current hair looks nothing like that. It looks like Im transitioning from relaxed to natural.

I've never wore my hair in a "straight" way-cuz I always had locs.. So last year I wanted to experiment and to see how I looked.. your hair is still techincally natural because it reverts back to the original form..

My hair is currently anti-reversion because I was ignorant and let ppl do whatever to my hair.

Depressed.

Bad Romance

I'm okay with sleeping with a broken heart. I put my heart on the line and I was honest about what I wanted. He's like the wind, but I go where ever it blows. Its sacrilegious to declare that I desire commitment.

Yet I'm realistic to understand that he has a job to do. We weren't fated to be in 2010 but perhaps we'll m...eet in the future. I like him a lot and have shed a lot of tears. Who knows where we'll end or begin.

Somewhat sappy and unrealistic to the actual happenings. But he deploys tonight too Afghanistan for 12-15 months.

Its been one heck of turbulent ride.

Tallyho! All Aboard to Germany! ..again

May 25- Moved to Germany
June 7- Got job at the gas station
June 8- Started said job. Now I'm sponsored by the military to be in Germany
June 15- Got my German drivers licence
June 19- Will receive my car to drive in Germany

ANSWERS to the SILENT questions:

-I have a place to stay. My friend C, her husband deployed so she opened her home to me.

---My homeboy is deploying and he's letting me borrow his card; he's gonna continue paying for insurance, gonna give me money for new breaks, and putting me on registration. Basically he's gonna get a power of attonery. ...

He didn't wanna put his car in storage and he knew I was gonna need a car. So it works out.

---I'd rather work a mininum wage job in Germany, with the opporunity to visit Greece or Spain for a 4 day weekend than being in Ohio with my application/resume on hold.

---I put in 100$ for groceries, dont have to pay for anything but gas for my car, my extra things, but I'm not going to be a taker. I help out around the house and watch her kids to give her a break.

---And as for my next step. Taking everything day by day. Not stressing and enjoying life. I've been extremely blessed.

My Personal Birthday Gift: 6/10/87

It wont make sense to you.

It only matters to me.

I believe in love and the sanctity of marriage.

With this I can only treasure, appreciate, honor, and love my next step.

My Birthday Gift is to Marry myself.

I dont trust anyone. I barely trust myself.

In that case I qualify.

Only I understand the complexity within and I still aim to win.

No one measures up and Ive lost My Ruler.

So with this Ring I Thee Wed Me.

#icelandfact